When Todd and I were up at the mine he spoke to me about a idea he had for a book. He wanted me as well as all of the miners to write a chapter for him. He told me the book was about “Fear!” I heard Todd has told his friends that he signed a book deal with Discovery Channel so I thought I would give you a sneak peak. This letter was sent out from Todd’s Crosstracker Christian Hunting Club. Without further adieu: Todd’s own words on the show Gold Rush Alaska (unedited of course) that premieres the fourth episode on January 7th, 2011 at 10:00 on Discovery Channel.
Todd Hoffman December 19 at 12:06am
I walk into a large room filled with evil baddas demons and they part the room as I walk through because Im a serious spiritual badass. They cringe because I got blood and guts all over my sword. My shield has dents in it and so does my helmet, but they can see that I basically kick ass and they dont want to be the next chunk of meat on my sword. Behind me a few more guys walk stroll in and they are the same as me.
We walk over to a pile of demons on top of one of our people feeding on them trying to finish them off. We walk over and surround them and then one of our guys who is an encourager starts to whisper in his ear. Another guy comes and helps him up and another one teaches them how to use there sword and another one gives him a shield. All of the sudden we have another ass kicker along side of us.
One guy at a time we begin to move forward.
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Of course Satan tries to tell me Im nothing and Im a crappy Christian and I have nothing to offer. He tells me not to write you guys that my heart is black and I have nothing to say. He tells me tries to make me fearful. Fear wells up inside of me as people look at me because Im on TV.
Well guess what, so what, Im going to push forward and yes my heart is dark that is why I need a savior. Did I treat Dorsey perfect, no I didnt. I hade to apologize to him and him me. He would challenge my authority and I didnt like that. Is he a bad guy, no he isnt. Hes a good husband and father. You dont want him running a piece of equipment near you though, but so what, you dont want me teaching you how to snowboard and he is one of the best.
No we are not close anymore, but someday maybe we will be, but who cares, your not going to like everybody and people are going to hate you just because. Whatever, get over it.
Most of you guys have been following me for a long time, through thick and thin. My marriage is way better. Those dark times are gone ,but rest assured will return. We will cycle through good times and bad, we are fallen.
like the pittle picture I painted at the top of the letter, that is actually what is really going on. Its hard to believe but as you guys join with other believers and move mens hearts forward, that is exactly what is going on. Pray for me because Im moving the ball forward and in episode 10 the ball is thrown out there for millions of people to see. I negotiated this small event. I was born at night brothers, but not last night.
Not everything in the show is exactly real, its mostly real. Its not easy shooting a tv show, its super hard. Hardestthing I have ever done. I came up to the door and didnt knock, I just decided while we are here, lets just kick the door in. Thats how guys like us do it, Amen? Now there are a couple hints I have given you. I have said that Im going to build the best website in the world. I have also said a few things about MMA. These are a few shows I have been working on before I go mining again with my brothers.
I truely believe that you crosstrackers reached hundreds of thousands of people in facebook about GoldRush. Goldrush is beating all the major networks out. It was the highest premiere since deadliest catch. Do you think think that is an accident? No it was not. No Im not a prefect Christian to carry the batton. In my weekness CHrist will be glorified. I used to have a good fullback when I ran the ball I would tuck in behind him then break out and get the yards. My full back took the pain and the big hits and no glory and I came through with the bal and moved the yards.
Maybe my fat butt is the fullback and Jack my father is the running back. He reaches lives for Christ. My friend Greg reaches lives, maybe they will hate me but watch and learn to love me dad and learn about Christ.
Who knows, but get outside of your boxes, its time. We are going to take back our country not just politically, but spiritually. Do not be afraid brothers, I know your in sin and your not perfect, but go forth and make fishers of men. You light will shine your sins are forgiven brothers.
Two million guys are watching me every friday night. Think about that. If I can do this, you can talk to the guy at work. Im taking genades like crazy, but Im sacrifising my life as an example for you guys. Discovery flew a guy out to talk to me, because they want to work out our deal for next year.
I told them Im not doing this for money, Im doing this to reach the hearts of men and introduce them to Jesus. They just kinda look at me.
Its like they are in charge, they are not in charge! God is in charge. WE SERVE THE MOST HIGH GOD. NOT ALL OF MY MOVES WERE GODLY UP THERE, NOT ALL MY MOTIVES WERE GODLY, NOT ALL MY CREW WAS GODLY, BUT WE SERVE THE MOST HIGH AND THIS IS A PLAY THAT THE LORD WILL USE TO WIN HEARTS.
People wonder if Im a little nuts, well ofcourse I am I say. Are you the guy to run back into the burning house to save someone. I am. Im running back into the burning house with this show. During my dark hours, I shared with you guys and your encouragement brought me through. I committed to using my wierd skils to go back into the burning house to save some men, the dying men, not the churchy men, the dying guys.
All this show is, is me doing this. I dont care about the fame or anything else, I could give a crap. Three guys cried with me and Greg when we spoke at a church last sunday, now that my brothers is the shizzle.
I love being a part of you guys. Thanks for listening to my ramblings.
My parents and family and wife and kids think Im great. The haters out there dont understand what Im doing like you guys do.
Brothers, dont just keep the faith, move it forward.
Todd Hoffman
GoldRush Alaska